There have been two weeks in this last month where I haven’t been sure what to write about. A goal for this blog is to offer consistent (post every Tuesday) and helpful content. I want each post to be valuable and offer some sort of practical way for you as the reader to examine your life and grow.
I typically write on weekends and a few weekends ago when I didn’t post I had had a long week and weekend filled with work and personal things. I pushed myself a little too hard. I drank a little bit too much and didn’t have enough time to completely recharge. This last weekend I just wasn’t feeling particularly inspired by anything even though I had an amazing weekend. I started writing a post and it just didn’t feel right. So I started writing this one because I want to be honest with you all.
Sometimes we start things in life with passion and enthusiasm and then they fizzle out because we are not living authentically in other areas of our lives. I let fear pull me away from feeling excitement about something I wanted to do with my life. Excitement and fear are emotions we should be paying attention to. If you are afraid of doing something with your life, chances are, that is what you need to do with your life. If you fiercely love or hate something, that is a hint as to what your calling is.
I had a talk with a friend about the anxiety I have been experiencing lately despite all the self care and relaxation I do. I have been feeling tense and stressed for no particular reason and I found it confusing and frustrating. She guided me to the realization that I have been experiencing anxiety due to not fully living my purpose. I am avoiding the thing that gives me so much excitement but it also scares me to death because it isn’t guaranteed.
MY purpose is to teach, learn and grow. This means a lot of different things for me. The two weeks where I was feeling blah about this blog were due to the fact that my energy has been drained by other tasks that my heart isn’t fully invested in. If you are constantly giving your energy to tasks that you are not passionate about, of course you will not have time to pursue your passion and you will experience dissonance.
If you are not pursuing your passions you might end up feeling depressed, anxious or completely lack motivation.
Penny is passionate about playing with her toys. Here is a picture of her not pursuing her passion. Just look at the sorrow.
Here are some questions for your own reflection.
What am I doing that is charging my battery?
What am I doing that is depleting my battery?
What am I scared of and what am I excited about?
What would I do if I knew I could not fail?
Am I living my truth?
Do I know what my truth/life purpose is?